This week has been utterly insane. Honestly, I didn’t know I had it in me.
So, to start off, let me explain something. There’s this guy I’ve been friends with since seventh grade. And I’ve liked him for a really long time. (Is the word “crush” childish? I don’t know if I should use it.) But this last week, my best friend was pushing me to finally tell him how I feel. She suggested I do what I do best–write a story about it.
So I did. I wrote a story that explained how I felt about the whole situation, that I liked him but was super anxious to tell him. Then all I had to do was send it to him. But I couldn’t. I just–if you’ve ever tried to tell one of your best friend of many years that you like them as more than a friend, you understand how hard it is. So, I told Alexandra to send it to him whenever she wished, and not to tell me when she did so.
So then I waited. Anxiously. Terrifyingly. It was difficult, but eventually he responded. And . . . he feels the same!
Man, this was difficult. I’m still in shock that I did that. I honestly never thought I’d be able to tell him. But now . . . well, I’m happier than I’ve been in a long time. My friends keep telling me that they’ve never seen me this happy, or, in the words of Alexandra, I am “radiant.” Hahaha.
I don’t really know what we’re going to do now, but I’m sure that we’ll figure it out.
And apparently since then I’ve found a well of courage that I didn’t know I had. I told my manager at my job that I’m going to quit. So by the end of next week, I won’t have a job anymore. But, I’m determined to find a better one, one that I like a lot better. Of course, all of these jobs are just to tide me over until I can finally get a book published.
I’m don’t normally have this kind of initiative, so it’s kind of scary and new. But I like it. Wish me luck with everything!
I hope your week was as amazing as mine was! See you next week!